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Happy day everyone.... Because just this week for me has been horrible 😣 Being 36 weeks and 3 days pregnant has not been rosy for me. Let's see, I'm not saying with this that I don't love my baby. On the contrary, I already crave to see his little face, kiss him, hug him, breastfeed him, take care of him and give him lots of love. But, since week 33 it has been quite difficult for me. Hard and drastic changes, not even the most expensive cream on the market prevented me from getting stretch marks and I avoided them because I took good care of myself, but well, one more scratch for the Tiger.

Since the baby started gaining weight, I have experienced several changes in my body, from stretch marks on my lower belly to excruciating pain in my spine. Not to mention how hard it is for me to sleep at night because of getting up in the wee hours every now and then to pee 😣 I sleep intermittently from hour to hour all through the early morning until 8 or 9am. Another of my discomforts is that I feel like I suffocate when I am lying down and even sitting, because of the weight of my baby, a nice 3.5 kilograms🤐.

I feel that I can no longer do the same little things I did until week 33 of my pregnancy, because even washing the dishes and cooking, above all, is very difficult for me. I don't have the same spirit anymore and if I'm honest, the only thing I want is to hold my baby in my arms and get out of this stage. Because if you have read my previous publications, you will have noticed the clinical picture that I present (mild risk of preeclampsia, total occlusive placenta previa and gestational diabetes) and that was not easy for me to accept. It is important to normalize that for all women, pregnancy is not rosy. I have already heard different opinions from my friends and I think that after 30 years old, it is even more difficult. Of course, coupled with a sedentary lifestyle, it is even more difficult.

On the other hand, because of my condition of total occlusive placenta previa, I will have caesarean section.... I can't tell you how relieved I am to have found out. I must confess that even though science and experts suggest that delivery is better, I could not imagine spending hours and hours in labor. I was terrified of the idea. I even had a consultation with my endocrinologist and gynecologist yesterday. The latter insisted on doing a transvaginal ultrasound again to confirm the obvious: I have total occlusive placenta previa and nothing has moved. These echoes are very painful for me and I hate them.

As I will have a cesarean section, next May 26th I have an appointment for a Pre-Anesthesia. I have never been operated on anything, only on my wisdom teeth. And on that day I also have my last appointment with the gynecologist. I'm already on pre-warning, he told me that depending on the echo of that day, possibly the next day I could be doing the cesarean section and I tell you that just yesterday I started washing my baby's clothes 😅 Not because I'm lazy, eh. We are in spring and we started with rain and cloudy skies until this week that the weather has changed and I was able to wash all the diapers, bed linens, sheets, and other things where I use the washing machine. But I want to wash my clothes completely by hand and that's what I'm working on 😅 Yet, even knowing that I will have a C-section, my nerves are on edge. I spend practically the whole day trying to rest but I can't because of the series of thoughts that invade my brain. And the truth is, I've tried to take it easy, but this week was the straw that broke the camel's back and I'm not one to show my nerves, but I think it's normal in my situation. I am not sure. As I write this post, I am sitting on my sofa bed with thousands of pillows trying to relax as I feel my son's movements suffocating me. But on the other hand, I am also aware that all bodies, all pregnancies, all babies and all human beings are different. And this is what helps me to cope.