I've always loved singing and dancing since I was little. I wasn't really the songbird but my siblings made singing fun and enjoyable, you can say I come from a family where everyone loves music. My dad particularly loves music more than anything, he has told us the history of his love for music and how he started writing and composing songs and also wanted to venture into the music industry, likewise my mom who also loves singing with her sweet alto part. My sister is a soprano/treble singer and so are my immediate siblings too. Music completes the family to say the least.

I and my siblings spent our childhood days soaked in music, there wasn't any cartoon or movie we watched which had music in it we didn't know how to sing. We would make sure we pause at every instance after watching the whole thing to be able to extract and write down the songs so we could scream along later.
It was always fun, with my sister singing treble, I joining in with the alto part, and sometimes my immediate brother keying in with his tiny sweet voice, believe me when I say that our childhood was fun, one of the best with my family.
We sang in the church choir, from the children's choir to the adult/youth choir. I specifically was carefree about singing and how I sounded, I really didn't trouble myself about my voice or tone, I just did really love singing along and I usually duet with my sister a few times in church when we had children's service or celebration.

And boom! things changed, I grew up and everything took a different shape. I wasn't enthusiastic anymore about singing or dueting with my sister in church, my immediate brother took it up from there.
I wasn't really interested in singing at the time anymore maybe because I believed it was time for me to be transferred from the children's department to the youth department so my singing had to stop for a while until I joined the youths choir generally called The Music Team.

Why I Stopped Singing

I became more conscious and concerned about my voice, my tone, and how I sounded. I met people who could sing so well with sonorous voices and so I was discouraged. Perhaps singing wasn't for me, it's not my calling since I didn't have one of those sonorous voices, so I thought. I just knew how to sing but to the best of my ability not that I have or had that outstanding and breathtaking voice like others.

I wasn't comparing myself to others, but I didn't need anyone to tell me either that yeah, this really wasn't my calling and that some people are just blessed with the gift of songs, sweet and melodious voices and tones. It wasn't one of my giftings so I understood, and I tilted to that consciousness. After joining the youths choir, which wasn't really out of my free will, I learned to adjust to the fact that I sounded just fine with my tone, and I became a little more confident with my voice than I was before when I started feeling singing wasn't my thing or my calling.

Though many times, I still shy away from singing in public places standing out alone, or from the crowd, but one thing is for sure, I don't sound terrible and no you wouldn't need cotton to block your ears when I sing 😅😂, you can take my words for it hahaha.
But all the same, we all have our different gifts and calling, I just believe my ministry is in dancing more than it is in singing, either way, I still love singing but not as much as I love dancing😌

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               27 June 2022
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